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Thursday, December 31st, 2037
12:00 am - Placeholder for your friendly messages
This is a little place where you can leave general comments which aren't in response to articles by me.
Hellos go in here.

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Monday, August 2nd, 2010
12:33 am
Ahh... Champagne in a hot tub in mid Wales with friends. The good times are back 8^D

current mood: pleased

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Saturday, January 16th, 2010
4:25 pm
Mobile internet from 3, my phone browsing speedtest.net, top floor of Pret in central Oxford, it says 4.5 Mbit/s download and 1.36 Mbit/s upload, with 104 ms ping time.  It's not usually that good!

That's faster upload than ADSL - I'll have to do my P2P over asymmetric routes in future ;-)  Reading mail on the phone over SSH was unusually snappy.  Usually inside a building I'm lucky to get a voice signal around here.

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Thursday, April 17th, 2008
12:43 pm

Some knob's been spending my credit card.  £968 in Indian Rupees, on fuel and hotels over the last 9 days.

It's a stroke of luck I checked the online statement.

The card is now cancelled.

I'm told to expect a refund, when I sign a formal statement confirming which transactions are fraudulent.

It was nice knowing you, dear card and memorised number.  Rest in peace.

current mood: annoyed

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Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
7:59 pm
I was just reading the Slashdot comments on which college someone should go to, formative experiences in early adulthood, advice on how different environments equip one with various social experiences and personality-forming memories and so on, and had a wonderful little dual perception moment.

I saw me being a friend to the person, 'me' - 'this body'.  But it was more of an experience and out-of-body perception.  I briefly saw and felt and consciously participated in the process/relationship by which I am a friend, guide and custodian of this growing, conscious, vulnerable, emotional self-concept who I think of as me.  Self-love, between parallel times, without the crude associations.

I am involved in an excellent relationship with S these days.  Challenging in all sorts of ways.  Plied with love.  Thrown into possibilities.

I feel like I am reaching back in time, the energy of now-perception flowing into the misfitting troubled past.

What a beautiful universe.

There's an inkling of cusp afoot.

current mood: crazy

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Sunday, December 30th, 2007
8:49 pm
Well, I must say geroge's party last night was rather pleasant, and the highlight of my Christmas this year.  Thanks  geroge and everyone who made it a pleasure.

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Friday, December 28th, 2007
4:07 pm
This year has been quite interesting. I'll have to write about it sometime. But Christmas was a gentle anti-climax. After much fretting over presents for tiny nephew and even tinier niece, it turns out I was too ill to visit the family, so I stayed in Oxford. My first Christmas in Oxford! It's been so very dull!

Too ill to do much of anything, I had a quiet one, mostly in bed or reading, token coughs here and there. It was my third major downtime due to "flu-like symptoms" this year. Lemsip was interesting the first time, but I soon hated the side effects. The most exciting bit being a drive to look at the windmill in Brill. Doctor Who on a projector held promise, but the experience wasn't quite as thrilling as it might have been.

I envy yous who had little parties and made them sound like fun.

Two weeks of flutime has given me plenty of time to comtemplate life and such. I came to the same realisation I often come to: I'm not happy doing what I'm doing, and whatever it is isn't good for my health either. Still full of quiet loathing and gloom, still finding my heart isn't in anything, that the grass elsewhere doesn't look any greener, and still worried that I can barely manage an ordinary amount of work without getting utterly weary, let alone enjoy myself, do fun things, or shine in any way.

I don't know of anything happening on New Year's. I feel quite "unplugged" from the local matrix.

George's nibbles tomorrow, it is my last, best hope for this year!

current mood: listless

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Friday, September 21st, 2007
1:11 am - Without a phone
To anyone that was thinking of texting or phoning me, or who has done recently... I lost my phone last Saturday. Soon, perhaps, I will have another. Until then, messages left by answerphone will be picked up eventually, and texts will not be received.

Alas, that's 6 years worth of my favourite love texts gone :-(

So send me some more, when I get a new phone :-)

Recommendations for new phones gratefully received. Last time I looked (a year ago, and the year before), I was bewildered. I toyed with a "smartphone" then returned it because it was crap and slow, and didn't do 3G (despite the shop saying it did), and ran Windows CE. I tried a Nokia something-or-other, and found its menus incredibly slow compared with the 6-year old Nokia beauty I've been using until recently. That iphone looks shiny, but not necessarily actually useful or worth buying. The Nokia N95 got an interesting magazine review: Wi-Fi and VoIP if you get the right firmware for it. Nokia's Linux tablet would interest me if it were smaller and had a phone in it, but it doesn't. The OpenMoko looks about 1-2 years away from being really interesting, though it's a nice idea and I wish it well. Any recommendations?

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Friday, August 31st, 2007
7:59 pm
Today (in about 24 hours) I received approximately 12,000 spams. I was very surprised; last time I checked it was only 6,000 per day.

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Monday, August 27th, 2007
7:38 pm
I was recently treated to a frubble, and it was very nice thank you very much :-)

Very busy am I this week.

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Thursday, August 9th, 2007
10:07 am - You have new mail
Yesterday I decided to get with the doing, and skip email for a day.

Today, I wake to find 7477 new messages. Sorry, 7508 since I wrote that.

That's because my spam filter broke due to a full home directory. (Full of filtered spam.)

I'll run it through the filter, get rid of the most obvious spams.

Filtering gets me down to about 1000 messages a day. Most of them are still spam.
Any more aggressive filtering and I start to lose legitimate mails. That has been annoying.

I am considering giving up on email altogether.

Even though it only takes 45 minutes a day* to cull spam from the inbox (after machine filtering), and 15-30* minutes to read the interesting ones, by then I'm weary so I don't reply to the worthy ones (thoughtful replies take a while), I need a break after, and it seems to have a disproportionately negative influence on how productive I am the rest of the day. I'm not on any high traffic lists (I gave up those a few years ago, especially linux-kernel).

To handle work emails, I use whitelisting. Only known senders appear in the whitelisted inbox. Those are people I work with, or particular friends who I've gotten round to adding to the whitelist. Not everyone is in the whitelist, and lists aren't.
I find it awfully difficult to check _only_ the whitelisted messages and willfully ignore the others.

* Add another 60 minutes for each day skipped, including weekends. Add a whole afternoon after short breaks. Officially give up after long breaks.

current mood: annoyed

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Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
7:01 pm
A couple of quick notes.

I stayed on a boat for a week and a half. It was fun, but a bit damp. Quite an old, all-wooden boat, needing work. Quite pretty in an organic corner-of-the-meadow sort of way. There were lots of walks in Port Meadow and even a picnic. (must post pictures)

I now have stable rented accomodation again, in a shared house with 4 people, no landlord. Folks seem nice enough. I don't know any of them except in passing, yet.

Last night was, I think, the 6th or 7th all-nighter in 20 days. Programming work is coming along reasonably well. (am feeling tired)

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Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
10:09 pm - It brightened my day
I think some of you will be pleased at this:

Jury decides - not-guilty: intention to damage US bombers destined for Iraq was lawful (background)

(Thanks to wolfpeach for letting me know.)

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Monday, May 7th, 2007
4:25 pm - Help!
I have to move out on Wednesday night or early Thursday, and I haven't found anywhere "proper" to move to yet.

(I haven't had a month, Grr. My soon-to-be-ex-landlady changed her mind: she's on holiday when the notice would end, so for her convenience I cannot leave on the date she previously agreed. This doesn't seem like it should be my problem, under the circumstances, but it's not worth challenging).

The problem is finding somewhere suitable at short notice, that does not require a long-term contract (as I don't want to stay in the next place for a long time), is a reasonable price, and feels peaceful. I haven't found it yet.

Do any of you lovely people (in/near Oxford!) have a space for me to stay for up to 2 weeks, starting this Wednesday night/Thursday morning?

I have space to store my things elsewhere; it's just me, some clothes and laptop.

I know most people like a strict time limit on such things, and I will agree to one and stick to it. Under the circumstances, even a short stay would be helpful, though I prefer not to have to move every few days.

Also, any suggestions for the next place to stay longer term? I am interested in any of: a room in a welcoming place; a one-bed flat; a house that needs looking after while someone's away for a few months, or a two+ bed flat (in which case I'll be sharing it with someone else who's looking).

-- Jamie

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Friday, April 27th, 2007
3:00 am
Interesting how intense, emotional postings take ages to write and are very long, yet cheery ones as so quick and easy!

Still, here's a quick and easy. :-)

On a brighter note, I have bought a new(er) car. I think the owner of my old one is very pleased with it, and I am pleased with the shinyness and CD player in my new one. :-)

Some of you don't like cars, so you may be relatively glad to hear that my insurance is 'low yearly mileage', and that I'm riding my bike around town much more than I have for years.

I've also bought a fiddle. I'm under instructions not to call it a violin, in case I start growing a bow tie and snooty stance. I've not played anything remotely like this before. I'm amazed at how loud it is, thus my first instinct is to play it quietly, which isn't really optimal as the notes are much cleaner when loud!

Work just went up a gear, and I'm tired but motivated.

And I'm still aglow from a delightful visit by paintedfairy. We went strolling in the country, and camping in Oxford! :-)

More of that, please :-)

current mood: sleepy

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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
2:15 am - Looking for somewhere to live - upbeat version
I'm looking for a new place to live, probably a room in a shared house. I have a month's notice, from today, so should move by May 16th.

You lovely people can help by suggesting good places for me.

My requirements...Collapse )

I have thought a little about buying somewhere, but my rough financials point to renting being quite economical compared with buying nowadays, provided it's a cheap one. And I really like having a room to live, and a room to work, being separate places. I might still buy somewhere, on a whim, you never know. Suggestions are open here, too.

current mood: hopeful

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Friday, March 2nd, 2007
12:51 pm
Yay, for I am off to Grimstone Manor, where I shall meet a few of my old massage familiars and many more new ones. It's organised by the same people I trained with 4-5 years ago. I expect it'll be nice to reconnect with that Devon/Bristol scene, something I miss and have been quite disconnected from over the last couple of years. It feels like coming round a circle, as I've been run down over the last couple of years on the massaging/therapy front, not practicing, and declining requests, since activities at the G8 2005, and the self-doubt and energetic weariness which came from that, and difficult events following it. I feel a hopeful circularity to reconnecting with the people who taught me so much on that front, and the energy and attitudes and so on. I expect I won't know many people there, (and due to recent household conversations am cautious about being too friendly and exuberant with people who don't know me), but somehow it doesn't matter. I feel a sense of peace and opportunity and continuity.

I've been to Grimstone before and it's very pleasant. We did lots of dancing and massaging last time. It'll be nice to chill, and have a proper holiday, and all sorts of niceness. Jacuzzi: tick. Pool: tick. Sauna: tick. Organic locally-grown food: tick. Gardens and walks: tick. Massage-friendly people: tick.

I'm getting the last and therefore least desirable room, but I really don't mind - I'm feeling monkish anyway. In my bouncy way ;-) Excited, me!

current mood: excited

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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
11:59 pm
I have just seen a most entertaining, pleasant, amusing, and moving, performance of Arabian Nights on a circular stage in a stylish big round tent in the BMW car park. Very much like a lot of bedtime stories brought to life. Great fun, I highly recommend it if you get the chance. By the Creation Theatre company.

current mood: cheerful

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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
11:31 pm
I seem to be dancing plenty lately. Monday night, last night, all day today, all day tomorrow, and Monday evening again. Exploring wild, crazy moves, feelings, expressions, energy, variety. Hours of fun. :)

I'm also spending lots of time at the Magic Café, taking advantage of my shiny newish laptop with the long battery life, discovering the pleasures of lunch, cake, cappucino (I didn't like coffee before), working things out on paper then making them work on the computer. It's nice to be among bustle, pleasant music, warm when it's cold outside. Work is getting to be fun again. :)

There are often young children. I don't mind the noise, except at its busiest. Some of them smile at me; maybe it's the hair. Sometimes I hide behind a menu or a mug and they giggle. One brought me a fluffy duck, and smiled when I waved the duck's little leg as she left. :)

I had a massage at Eau-de-Vie (that's therapeutic not erotic, for those who might wonder) on Thursday. That was nice, a good feeling. It's been a very long time since I received one, and it was nice not only to do that, but to be mindful again of the massaging, caring, healing side of myself that I don't express much these days. :)

Some of which is creeping out through the dancing. Now that I'm recognised as moderately regular, people seem to give me spontaneous hugs, and quiet cuddles on the floor at the end. Delicious, very welcome, and I feel my comforting, smiling, energy balancing instincts returning, and enjoy the sheer pleasure of it. :)

My bike's fixed, it's ridable and being ridden again! Watch this space for a fit bunny to emerge after a few months! :)

Better get to sleep ready for tomorrow. :)

Yup, there's plenty to smile at. Hugs'n'stuff!

current mood: pleased

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Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
2:12 pm
Last week I received an anonymous package containing two varieties of Chinese tea. Nice tea it is too. Whoever it was, thank you! *smile*

current mood: loved

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